Om

After a few days of stressing needlessly over passing the due date, I have finally reached a happy place. I feel very peaceful, but I'm completely exhausted. Last night we practiced a few of our Hypnobirth scripts and some relaxation techniques, and I was able to release a lot of the stress I've been holding since Monday. Still, I woke up this morning at 3am feeling very anxious. Determined not to lie awake for hours panicking over everything and nothing, I started thinking positive thoughts...

My mind is open.

My body is ready for the birth of our baby.

Then I began talking to the baby...

I trust you to know when the time is right.

I trust you to come when you are ready.

I repeated these four statements over and over until I finally fell asleep again. It was quite soothing.

Today my brain feels a bit frazzled and foggy, and although I'm not tired, my eyelids are heavy. Mentally, I'm spent. I feel like I've been channeling some deeper part of myself, the focused and serenely present inner self. And as if this wasn't already challenging enough, this self is being tossed around in a sea of unstable hormones and extreme emotions. I'm learning that sometimes it takes a lot of energy just to stay calm.

For now, I'm continuing to think these positive thoughts and taking one moment at a time. My big plans for later this afternoon are to have a cup of tea, listen to the rain hitting the roof, and watch my dogs running in their sleep. Life is good.